Too much and not at all

I have a tendency to hold onto things for too long, especially as they relate to the opinions, feelings and sensibilities of others. Even when I bare neither intent nor responsibility, I catch myself dwelling on the most inconsequential of events. I believe that it stems from the duality of my characteristic self-consciousness coupled with a certain obliviousness for my surroundings of an interpersonal nature. Recent events  have born this out in a rather dramatic, if extreme example.

Apparently, I am capable of standing in the wake of a full on natural disaster, and yet, still be left wondering, "was it something I said?"